stupid me

wow, can't believe it.

I feel like I've been fooled all this time. Rather, how foolish of me to trust in man..

It's ALL FOOLISHNESS

not worth it, really not

feeling pretty much betrayed, broken, and abandoned

Thankfulness

I am truly thankful for life.

But truly for God and His family =) Thankful for cornerstone*

<3

It was a very beautiful day. Mom and Me

...

I don't think I know how to deal with what I'd call "the real world". I have a fear of the world-- as cowardly as that sounds, I sorta do. But I know that once I get myself out there, I'll realize that it's not so bad after all. 

It's just that, I'm really a reserved person. And it's killing me. I don't know how to voice out what is really inside of me, and that frustrates others around me. I am just so used to directions and instructions (perhaps?).. to a point that I don't know how to make a way for myself, on my own. I'd much rather someone tell me what to do (not all the time).

나도 참 답답하다. 좋은 writer됬으면 좋겠다. 그보다 사람들에게 나의 마음을 제대로 전달하는 사람이 되었으면 좋겠다. 나는 욕심쟁이-- 내가 원하는 데로만 할려고 한다. When things are not as what I would want or desire, I don't TRY to venture forth. And that's being STUBBORN.

큰 문제: 행위를 취하는것. Get moving.

그리고 또 한 문제: losing interest in just about everything.. 

And ultimately, not able to offer my life as a true and living sacrifice. 

인내심

오늘 처음으로 수요예배를 나갔다. 소중한 말씀은:

하나님께서는 우리에게 인내를 요구한다

인내하는것은- 오래 참는것, 나의 의지를 내려놓는것, 하나님만 바라보는것.

인내하면서 믿음을 더 키울 수 있게 해주시는 것이다.

그렇지만 인내한다는 것은 결코 쉽지않고.. "살을 깍는 아픔"이 있다.

하지만 힘들면서도 계속 붇잡고 간구하고 하나님 앞에 나아가는것이...

 믿음을 넓혀간다는 사실. 잊지말자!

 

LOVE

I came across this quote yesterday.

According to G.K. Chesterton, "Many a man has been lucky in marrying the woman he loves. But he is luckier in loving the woman he marries."

Random post, but this is =)